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I've never been that girl
Looking for a one night stand
So going home with you
Was never in my plan

But you spoke to my heart
For hours that night
You had a way about you
I felt everything was right

I quickly fell in love
When you shared your faith
I realized then I found a man
Who was worth the wait

But I wasn't ready
Or prepared to compete
With the many demons
That you would choose to keep

The things you showed me
And threw in my path
Is a lifestyle that I know
My needs will come last

You have always been
The one I wanted to love
Not who you are now
The man you have become

You still want to believe
And justify in your mind
So sure I will manipulate
That I'm the vindictive kind

But you know what to use
To really make me hurt
And then you have the balls
To tell me that I'm worse

So the man that I love
Who I thought adored me
I've come to realize now
Was only make believe

You would be much happier
With someone more like you
There are so many in your world
It will be hard to choose

Someone you can trust
And consider equally
You don't mind spending time
In their company

You long to be with others
With the experience you share
You have so much in common
It's a pleasure to compare

There are several people
You surround with yourself
That the time I should have
You share with everyone else

Even when you find a way
To bless me with your time
I know that something else
Is always on your mind

It's become such a chore
Making time for me
When so many others
Can better meet your need

You've grown bored with me
And refuse to admit it
But I can clearly see
Who you'd rather be with

You don't think I'm cut out
To understand or relate
Trusting me in your world
Would be a big mistake

You make sure you quickly
And briefly meet my need
You can't wait to return
To a world that don't include me

Are you smart enough to see
We're never going to work
Not until you decide
Which world to put first

The minute you began
To pull away from me
You created a place
You keep separately

You are so concerned
About getting your fix
You'll let your addictions
Come between us like this

I can't continue to live
Competing with your demons
You need to be with someone
Happy to entertain them

But you'll keep me around
Until you manage to squeeze
Everything that is good
And special out of me

I might as well accept
The fact you can't deny
The love you have for me
Has always been a lie

It's time that you confess
Just where your head is at
You want to be free
To find your perfect match

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